It's hard to say in words what I often ponder - so I gave this blog up for a long time. I did a lot of thinking at church today (often it's easy to be distracted) A couple of things were said I didn't like - I keep thinking I need to be less judgemental. Many things were said I did like and made me think of the ways I need to do better.
What to judge and what not to judge is the question. And not an easy one. I want to do the right things but it's getting harder for me to tell. I ponder my own perceptions and get lost. When do I stand up for what I think is right and when is it better to keep my mouth shut.
A wise person once said something - I have often regretted the things I've said but rarely regretted being silent. I think there is a lot of wisdom in this saying.
I'm not even close to being who I should be but I truly want to do the right things - but I'm also cynical and wonder how many people really want to be good. I do know a few, I think? But they truly are far and few between. There's a song in the movie Pump Up the Volume called Everybody Knows that says Everybody knows the good guys lost, etc. - Yet somehow a couple of people fight back - knowing they probably can't win, at least not completely - Maybe we just need to win the battles in our lives and leave the outcome of the war to Heavenly Father.
I know I can't win the war - but with God's help - maybe I can win my battle.
